Note - The following originally appeared on my website, and in preparation of uploading some original fanfic stories, I am now copying it here for prosperity:
I read my sister’s blog
 not too long ago about her trip to London back in November for the 50th
 Anniversary Doctor Who convention. It was quite an amazing experience. 
The memories of my youth came flooding back – I first remembered the 
time I had the opportunity to attend a Who convention, oh so long ago, 
in Baltimore while I was attending Salisbury State University. I don’t 
remember much about the convention itself – only bits and pieces which 
include meeting Sophie Aldred (Ace – Companion to the 7th Doctor), and 
of course Tom Baker – the 4th Doctor, who is “my” doctor as well. I do 
remember feeling nervous about going since it was the first time I would
 make a trip to a large metropolitan city and doing it as a lone wolf. I
 was never one to be much of a city boy, let alone driving to navigate 
the roads in such, but somehow I made it to the show on time, and 
eventually made it back to my dorm room on the Maryland peninsula. This 
would have been right around the time that the show went on “extended” 
hiatus, which really meant that the BBC had finally killed it off.
The
 BBC did what no monster, evil genius, nor the Master himself could do 
in the show’s history. The BBC killed Doctor Who. They had been trying 
to kill it for years, and unfortunately, Colin Baker, who played the 6th
 Doctor in a far too short term was one of the early casualties of the 
battle. People can, and have, tried to come up with all sorts of excuses
 and reasons why the show, which even at that time in 1989, was the 
longest running Science-Fiction television programme in history why it 
met its demise. The true reasons why the BBC wanted rid of it are either
 unknown, unmentioned, or just lost to the ages of fading memory. 
Regardless, those in charge finally got their wish.
Doctor
 Who began its life 7 years before my own. It was there in my formative 
years, and my earliest television memories include watching an enigmatic
 character with a wide-brim hat and impossibly long scarf tramp across 
time and space in a funny looking big blue box, along with other notable
 shows like the original Star Trek, and the animated runs of G.I. Joe 
and The Transformers which appeared every weekday after school. Of 
course, at the time, it was PBS that was hosting reruns of Doctor Who, 
so it tended to be a few seasons behind the actual run in Britain, and 
early on, only had the shows featuring the 3rd and 4th Doctors. So it is
 amusing to me now to remember back to those early days and think that 
Jon Pertwee (Doctor #3) was actually successor to Tom Baker since PBS 
began the cycle again with Jon’s premier episode after they had 
exhausted their current inventory of Tom’s shows available. It was not 
until some years later, when the Peter Davison episodes finally made 
their way across the pond that I understood the correct chronology, and 
gained more of an interest in the character of the Doctor as now I 
realized there were more versions of him out there.
As 
the 70’s waned and the next decade took hold, it grew ever more apparent
 that the Doctor had tremendous international appeal across the globe, 
and thus more and more episodes were exported from the British Empire 
(though unfortunately by that time, many of the shows featuring the 
first three Doctors were destroyed, several dozen of which still remain 
missing to this day). But what there was became more available, so as I 
grew and was able to dig deeper and deeper into the lore and information
 about the programme, I was able to begin to experience each of the 
incarnations of the wandering Time Lord and found something to like 
about each one. I eventually became a member of two Doctor Who fan clubs
 and couldn’t get enough of the show – even going so far as to request 
my mother knit a scarf that was a replica of the one featured in Tom 
Baker’s final season as the Doctor, which I still wear every now and 
again when winter rolls around each year.
It was around
 this time that I was heading off to University and the Colin Baker and 
Sylvester McCoy episodes were making their way onto PBS. Though my 
favorite Doctor was, and always will be the 4th, I still found the newer
 replacements just as fun and engaging as those I remembered as a child.
 And it was for that reason I found it so disheartening to learn that 
the BBC no longer wanted the programme around, and through the 
information provided from the fan clubs learned of the turbulent times 
of the 6th Doctor’s run, and then eventually learned of the second, and 
final “hiatus” of the show while in my first year of studies at SSU.
For
 the remainder of my four years at school, I could only satisfy my 
cravings through the reruns on PBS while ingesting as much information 
as I could get via the fan clubs and hope beyond hope that the BBC would
 see reason and return the programme to the airwaves in short order, as I
 imagine most other fans of the series did at the time. However, as the 
years went by and the 90’s took full hold, the realization came that 
Doctor Who would not be coming back. Disappointment set in and as Real 
Life marched on with the responsibilities of work and relationships with
 others that did not quite have the interest in Doctor Who that I did, I
 let my fandom slip away to the memories of time, and moved on to other 
things.
Then, around late 1995, early 1996, hope 
glimmered anew as rumors of a television special began to make waves. 
This would be funded and produced by an American company. Though it had 
been 7 years since the Doctor’s demise in Britain, the fanbase in the US
 still remained strong and here was hope that this television special 
might draw enough of an audience to bring the programme back to life, 
and at least keep it out of the hands of the BBC to boot. Alas, it was 
not to be. Though the show itself was enjoyable, and Paul McGann 
performed capably as the 8th Doctor, I personally felt that too much was
 crammed into the show to bring in enough new fans to give the kickstart
 needed for another series. There was too much backstory referred to 
that would only make sense to long time fans of the show and of course 
throwing in a regeneration scene to boot would have just caused too much
 confusion to those coming to know the Doctor for the first time. 
Whatever the reasons, this became a one-off adventure of the 8th Doctor 
on television, the remainder of stories featuring him relegated to the 
ongoing series of novelizations and audio adventures at the time, until 
the recent webisode featuring his regeneration into the War Doctor (now unofficially the 9th Doctor).
So
 once again, the Doctor, and any hope of his return, faded to the memory
 of the ages for another 9 years. Then around 2004/2005 the big news 
arrived that the Doctor would return in a new series, for realsies this 
time. The BBC had decided to bring the show back on the air after 16 
years of limbo. However, I found I could no longer feel the excitement 
that the news should have brought, and that I had felt almost a decade 
before when the Doctor had returned all too briefly. Perhaps it was 
because I didn’t want to be disappointed again. Perhaps the results of 
experiencing the runs of the new Star Trek series and movies that just 
didn’t quite measure up to the 78 episodes of the original run, and of 
experiencing the disappointment of the prequel trilogy of the Star Wars 
movies left me jaded in thinking that any new series would just not be 
able to measure up and capture the unique campiness and quirks of the 
original run of the show. Mostly, though, perhaps it was the fact that 
it was the BBC who killed the programme in the first place and I thought
 that they least of all deserved to have run of the show and any profits
 that would come of it.
In the end, I guess you could 
say I had moved on. That relationship was in the past. I now had new 
interests and a family that occupied my time. It was not until some 
years later, during David Tennant’s run as the 10th Doctor (now 
unofficially the 11th) that I actually took the opportunity to watch a 
couple of the episodes from the first new season just to see what it was
 all about. I was glad that the show held true to its roots, and though I
 did not like the TARDIS interior redesign (which was first featured in 
the ’96 special), found the episodes enjoyable enough to watch. But, in 
the end, my initial feelings held true. As faithful as the new series 
remained to the original, it just wasn’t the same. The magic was gone 
for me, and the new series will never hold the awe and wonderment that 
the original did. Which brings me back to a statement by Matt Smith (the
 most recent Doctor to complete his run – 11th or 12th depending on your
 point of view) that my sister had mentioned in her blog.
He
 had said something to the effect that the people in their 30’s were 
robbed of Doctor Who. You could say they were robbed of their childhood.
 I couldn’t imagine what my life would have been like had I not been 
introduced to the Doctor in my formative years and been a fan of the 
show up through most of my young adulthood. I would not be the same 
person I am now. So yes, the BBC robbed millions of people of their 
childhoods back on that day in 1989 when they decided to end the run of a
 show that brought joy to many across the globe (and I am sure lined the
 pockets of the execs at the time to boot). But more than that, all of 
us who had been fans, young and old, were robbed of one of the most 
unique, interesting, and captivating science-fiction programmes of all 
time. Ironic that after 50 years of continuing to be the longest running
 sci-fi series in history, for about a third of that time, there were no
 new episodes being produced.
So when I had finished 
reading the blog, I realized I wished I could have been there as much as
 my sister wanted me to be there with her at the convention. Despite all
 the intervening years where I had not watched one single episode of all
 the hundreds I had videotaped over time, with the exception of the two 
DVDs my sister had given me for Christmas a few years ago, I wished more
 than anything I could have been in the room where the panel of the old 
Doctors was being held, and that I would have been lucky enough to have 
been selected to ask a question of them. I imagine it would have gone 
something like this:
“Hello, and thank you all for 
taking the time to be here. I swam all the way from Trenton, NJ just for
 this event. (Pause for laughter). Just in case there are those who 
don’t remember, Trenton was where K-9 was made, and I must say it gave a
 boy of my young years at the time a thrill to know that my favorite 
Doctor actually knew where I lived. (Another pause for laughter and 
applause).
“I just wanted to say, that even though I 
always think of Tom as “my” Doctor, and he will always hold a place as 
my favorite among all, that I enjoyed what each and every one of you 
brought to the role and always looked forward to your next adventure 
every week. I only regret that we don’t have three equally important 
gentlemen sitting up there with you so that they can be included with 
that statement. (pause for more applause). I should also include Mr. 
McGann as well since I consider him part of the old guard as well, and I
 think it truly a shame that he, Colin, and Sylvester got the short end 
of the stick and really did not get the chance to shine as bright during
 their tenures as the Doctor. (more applause). Like I said, I enjoyed 
what each and every one of you brought to the show and to the Doctor and
 wish the two of you, and Paul had more of a chance to complete longer 
runs in the role.
“But, let me get on with my question 
as I don’t want to rob anyone else of their opportunity. Thinking back 
to something I think I recall Peter saying one time in that he regrets 
not staying on longer as the Doctor (correct me if I am wrong), and with
 the realization that time marches on and we really only have a limited 
time on this earth, I would ask each of you, if you had a TARDIS and 
could go back in time to re-visit your tenure as the Doctor, what would 
you see as the biggest success or triumph of your run, and what would 
you see as the biggest regret that you would like to have back and 
change?”
What I wouldn’t give to be able to hear the 
answer to both of those questions from each and every one of the 
gentlemen who played the role from Bill Hartnell up through Paul McGann.
 And come another 25 years, when we celebrate the programme’s 75th 
anniversary, to include Chris Eccleston, Dave Tennant, Matt Smith, and 
Peter Capaldi in that as well. Because, you see, thanks to a little bit 
of canon introduced during the original run of the show, we know that 
Time Lords can be granted additional sets of regenerations, so though 
Capaldi marks the official last form of the Doctor’s original set of 12 
regenerations (allowing for 13 different “bodies”), I have no doubt that
 he will be given a new lease on life and continue on, so long as the 
BBC doesn’t make the same mistake twice.

